Working Girl Blues

I started a new job on May 2nd, and I've been loving it, but have been so busy I've barely held my head on, let alone had time to blahg.

I returned to work this week, after the big week in OBX and the Wedding Event, followed by the Memorial Day Holiday, (I'm sure you know the feeling of coming back to work after a week at the beach and a long holiday weekend. It sucks to go back after all that leisure time) only to find that my new boss had terminated one of my new co-workers. And why? Because I can do everything she can do, better. (So I've been told, not that I believe this, and even if I did, I would NEVER say it.)

Do I feel like shit? Oh, yes, I do, boys and girls.

I knew that there would be resistance to my presence by my new co-workers, but I never expected there to be terminations because of me. I feel absolutely horrible and suddenly I don't love my new job so much anymore.

And to make it really, really bad, I truly liked the person who was terminated. She is very classy, very professional and really knew what was going on ... I am very much afraid that I can't do everything she was doing.

Today was her last day and it was really awful. I cried, and now I feel like a real worm. Guess it's time to post the resume again because I am NOT going to be well-liked at work anymore.

I think in my past life I was something terrible, an axe murderer perhaps? Why do I say this? Well, because in the grand scheme of things, I really feel like I'm paying and paying and paying, yet no matter how much I've paid, I don't feel like I've completely atoned my guilt (perhaps because I'm Catholic, and as a good Catholic, you know you will always have guilt. Always.)

Hopefully in my next life I'll work my way back up the ladder, a bit closer to Nirvana (and a Buddhist, instead of a Catholic.)